Hatefully Unsatisfied (Esther Day 5) Author-Brandon Caudill

Today’s reading gives us a glimpse into the heart of someone who has an abundance of earthly wealth and power, but is bankrupt spiritually. Examine with me the following verses:

“And Haman went out that day joyful and glad of heart. But when Haman saw Mordecai in the king’s gate, that he neither rose nor trembled before him, he was filled with wrath against Mordecai.” – Esther 5:9

After leaving the special banquet prepared by Esther for himself and the king, Scripture declares Haman was “joyful and glad of heart.” No worries. No problems. Only a belly full of royal wine and food and an invitation to another party the next day (Est 5:8). We see quickly, however, that Haman’s joy and gladness were temporary, for it all turned to venomous hatred at the sight of Mordecai:

“And Haman recounted to them the splendor of his riches, the number of his sons, all the promotions with which the king had honored him, and how he had advanced him above the officials and the servants of the king… ‘Yet all this is worth nothing to me, so long as I see Mordecai the Jew sitting at the king’s gate.’” – Esther 5:11, 13

Again, at a self-requested meeting of family and friends (Est 5:10), we see Haman joyfully boasting in his riches and rank in the kingdom. But, just like before, we learn that it fails to satisfy him. Sadly, his hateful heart drove him to confess that he counted it all as nothing at the sight of Mordecai the Jew.

It is easy for us to demonize and criticize Haman. After all, he was a prideful, boastful, self-centered, immoral, greedy, manipulative, murderous, and racist person who only cared about himself. He seemed to have everything the world could offer, but he was still hateful and unsatisfied. It’s easy to find ourselves condemning such a person. But how many of us, before experiencing the transforming power of the gospel, used to be just as horrible as Haman? Even more so, how many of us as followers of Jesus still struggle with our Haman-like tendencies and sins? Before we are quick to condemn Haman, we must remember how much we have benefitted from the grace of God in Christ Jesus. He saved us from our sins, and He is daily helping us to fight our sin.

Three takeaways from today’s reading:

  1. Remind yourself of the transforming power of the gospel in your own heart and thank God for His work of grace in your life.
  2. Beware of building your joy on temporary things such as wealth, luxury, promotions, positions, and the praise of others. Pray that God will help you see Christ as the sole source of your joy.
  3. Ask God to protect your heart from becoming hateful toward others. Pray that He will empower you to show the love of Christ to everyone.

Heavenly Father, it’s scary how much I can identify with Haman. Even though he was blessed with many sons, promotions, riches, and influence, he was still empty inside. He counted it all as worthless because one man, Mordecai, would not bow to him. How guilty I have been of taking everything You have given me for granted. I have often failed to see Your hand of blessing in my life because my heart has been sour. Please forgive me for not appreciating what I have because You didn’t give me more, God. I repent of this sin today. Please make my heart humble and content in You. May the fruit of Your Spirit be ripe in me, Jesus. May I continually be reminded of Your transforming power in my heart. Protect my heart from becoming hateful toward others. Please grow me more into Your likeness with each new day You give me. I ask and pray this in Your mighty name, Jesus. Amen.